Ilan Aydeen - 3 days
Mmg tak nafikan, the first few days was the toughest. I was discharged on the 3rd day. Alhamdulillah, Ilan pun discharged frm NICU pagi tu. Nanti kite story ye psl knape bby masuk NICU.
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| 1st time dapat betul2 hold baby Ilan Aydeen. Time ni kat NICU |
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| Lepas breastfeed buat kali pertama... Rase sedih nak tinggalkan die.. :'( |
On the way balik, kitorg stuck dlm jam teruk. Dlm krete semua org tense psl lama sgt dlm jam n diorg semua dh keletihan. Al maklumlah, br berpuasa n dh nk dkt waktu berbuka.. And i dh penat n sakit pinggang.
Smp rumah Ilan Aydeen dh lapar sgt, so breastfeed lh dia. Mmg time ni susu blm ada, juz ada colustrum or 'first milk'. Quantity pun xlh byk sgt. Ilan Aydeen pun tk pandai latch bebetul lg. So sgt sgt sakit bila dia isap nipple and die suck and chomp on it sekuat mungkin. Maybe psl die tak puas nyusu.
Psl ni jgk dia dok menangis non-stop. Lapar lh tuee. Kesian pun ada, tapi tatau nk buat mcm mane, try to dodoikan die, tapi die tak stop gak nangis. Rasa dunia ni cam terbalik sat. Rasa runsing, penat, sedih, semua campur jadik satu. I seriously felt helpless and stressed out.
Day 2 @ home
Ilan Aydeen - 4 days
Boobs dah start membengkak. Rase2 time ni dah ada susu kott. Ilan Aydeen still tak pandai latch bebetul and since nipple kite besar and mulut die kecik sgt, die nk isap pun susah. Masih merengek lagik. Time paling best is bila mandikan dia and die so tenang lepas kita belai2 die, sapu minyak kat badan die lepas mandi. Sorry, mmg ramai kata kenapa dah start guna pacifier. Its too early. Tapi kan, you should hear his cries and screams. Serious tak sampai hati.
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| Ketenangan lepas mandi. Paci is bigger than the face! |
Banyak time bonding ngan die. Paling best bile die rest kat chest kita. Diapers count - UNCOUNTABLE! Ilan Aydeen is the official 'poop machine'. Tapi takpe, at least kite tau die healthy. Memula kekok gak nk salinkan and mandikan dia, but i learned fast and all from instinct. Cewaah.
Day 3 @ home
Ilan Aydeen - 5 days
Sebenarnyer time ni agak runsing coz we're in the midst of house moving, so mcm2 yg my hubby kene settlekan. I was left to tend to myself. Time ni, boobs dah mengeras macam batu. Nothing helps! Susu banyak tapi touch sikit pun dah sakit gler, apa lagi nk bagi boobs kat Ilan Aydeen. Nk pump, but dalam kalut masa nk discharge tu, hubby misplaced the pump. Haiyaark!
Day 4 @ home
Ilan Aydeen - 6 days
Boobs dah makin sakit. Kita dah tuam, dah urut, still sakit. Menangis bagai nk rak. Time ni gak lah incision kita sakit. Nak baring tak boleh, actually, takleh nk change from one position to another. rasa macam the incision terbukak. It doesn't help too that we know there's no sutures and the wound is held together with glue.
Ilan time ni pun kerap dah bangun malam. At least tiga kali for feeding. Pagi tu betul2 break down nangis kat Kiki. Cakap kat die yang badan kite ni dah mcm nak demam and sakit giler. Spine sakit, wound sakit, vajayjay sakit (yg ni tatau kenapa), boobs sakit and plus kita takleh nk tido.
Dah rasa nk give-up and beli formula dah coz kesian kat Ilan Aydeen macam tak cukup breastmilk (BM). Kita berdoa banyak2 yang this phase will go away and dapat carik satu solution. Pagi tu jugak call my cousin mintak pinjam pump.
Day 5 @ home
Ilan Aydeen - 7 days
Yeay! Alhamdulillah, dapat pinjam pump! And after pumping, Boobs kita yg engorged macam batu tu pun dah susut..
Ilan Aydeen pun dapat lah menyusu. For a time being, kita tak bagi boobs dulu pasal nipples kita chapped and bleeding. So pump into bottles and bg BM thru bottle feeding. Takpelah nak, sorry ye, bukan taknak bagi, but for a time being its better like this.
And... Jeng jeng jeng.. Tali pusat Ilan Aydeen tanggal on this day! Genap die 7 hari!!
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| Tali pusat dah tanggal! Yippee!! |
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